Well, It's Official!!!
Well, my new life started last night. I say that because I didn't have to attend court, so I am not exactly sure of what time in the day my divorce was final. All I know is that I woke up this morning back on the market. It is a wierd feeling though. Yesterday I woke up and my stomach was all in knots. It was a nervous feeling. I wasn't happy nor sad though. Although there was a point last night that I almost cried. I guess it was the thought that it is actually over. I am curious to know how my ex felt about it. We both agreed on the divorce, but I wonder how he feels about it now that it is over.
These were my thoughts I wrote yesterday. . . .
I am not regretting the decision at all, but it is more of a nervous feel. I guess it is the whole, I can't believe it is really over now feel. I hope I don't throw up today.
I guess there is also the feeling of "where do I go next?" "should I stay or should I go?" "will there be anyone else for in my life?" "or am I destined to be single forever?"
Now, I know that there are positive answers for these questions, and that the future will hopefully be exciting. But you know, they are things that run through my mind.
I am hoping that by this afternoon I won't be so shaky and that I will feel relieved and such. I hope I don't take it out on my kids at school. I hope I am not sitting in a corner somewhere crying later too!!
Well, I made it through the day!! I didn't really cry. I was sad a little bit, but everyone was nice to me. I woke up this morning because my mom sent me a text message "are you single?" and I said, "as far as I know!" So, here I am. . . alive and single. I made it through it. I am sad that it didn't work out, but I realize I have a whole life ahead of me to enjoy!! I can do whatever I want now. I don't have to answer or go home and ask someone if it is ok that I do something. I think I might seriously look into grad school and try to persue a job in public relations or something. Who knows...maybe I will get a really great teaching job somewhere!! All I know is that I amm ready to see where life takes me now!!!!!!!!!!!!
These were my thoughts I wrote yesterday. . . .
I am not regretting the decision at all, but it is more of a nervous feel. I guess it is the whole, I can't believe it is really over now feel. I hope I don't throw up today.
I guess there is also the feeling of "where do I go next?" "should I stay or should I go?" "will there be anyone else for in my life?" "or am I destined to be single forever?"
Now, I know that there are positive answers for these questions, and that the future will hopefully be exciting. But you know, they are things that run through my mind.
I am hoping that by this afternoon I won't be so shaky and that I will feel relieved and such. I hope I don't take it out on my kids at school. I hope I am not sitting in a corner somewhere crying later too!!
Well, I made it through the day!! I didn't really cry. I was sad a little bit, but everyone was nice to me. I woke up this morning because my mom sent me a text message "are you single?" and I said, "as far as I know!" So, here I am. . . alive and single. I made it through it. I am sad that it didn't work out, but I realize I have a whole life ahead of me to enjoy!! I can do whatever I want now. I don't have to answer or go home and ask someone if it is ok that I do something. I think I might seriously look into grad school and try to persue a job in public relations or something. Who knows...maybe I will get a really great teaching job somewhere!! All I know is that I amm ready to see where life takes me now!!!!!!!!!!!!
posted by Heather @ 6:59 AM
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